27 September 2005

Estoy Aqui

Yup, I'm still connected. With all that's happening, we didn't get a chance to visit the CANTV office to have our connection changed. So maybe one more day with service. All the boxes are packed and things are in order for the mega move. So while we wait, here is what's on my mind today.

Thanks for the nice comments regarding yesterday's post. But I must clarify something. Don't let the posting on the nice apartment disillusioned you. The hubby and I are not living la vida rico. We are the average working poor couple. It just so happened that we copped an extra nice Apt at the right time. We rented our Apt when Caracas and Venezuela was in the midst of all their political problems. The locals here with Apts were literally giving them away as a means to get foreign currency and flee the country. So we had more than our share of choices. Now things have stabalized a bit, the people realizing that fleeing the country isn't solving the problem, and trading in foreign currencies is illegal so the tables have turned. At the same time, many of them are now selling the Apts or have raised the rents to astronomical prices. Our current Apt is on the market for over $4,000 U.S. In no way in hell or heavens, our company would pay that price for an apt. So we enjoyed it while we can, and now going back to reality. We had the hardest time finding an Apt to rent within our budget in our new search, but we prevailed and found one. Now that I got that outta de way.

Last week, I stirred up a ruffle asking where people got their blog names, but didn't reveal the source of mine. So in all fairness, here goes. Campfyah was given to me by an old flame of mine. I was looking for a name for my email address and couldn't think of an original one. My flame suggested that I use the name that we both associate our heated friendship with. It was that we are always camping out and creating fire. Hence Campfyah the spelling of "fyah" derived from my favorite soca band at the time Xrossfyah. Now the secret is out.

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Was there ever somone in your life that you were close to but lost touch of and really wanted to reconnect with? I had a dream last night about such a perosn. The story goes like this. me and this person had a really close friendship or many years. Everyone knew how special this person was to me. We drifted ways when we were young adults and seeking to find ourselves only to be reconnected after many years and we connected and rekindled our friendship like if there was no break. Then once again, we drifted apart and lost contact with each other. The second time, although there was no animonisty or bad feelings, we did realize that the friendship needed some space. I thought that somehow, we would reconnect and carry on, but we never did.

I don't know where my friend is and vice versa. I often think about my friend and how their life is going. I'm always reminded of them in things I see or do. I've wondered on several occasions if I should try to search my friend out and reconnect our friendship, but I never make the move. I know that if we did connect again, that our friendship will be great. Some people tell me to leave it alone, but I often wonder.

Well last night, I had the most vivid dream that my friend and I had reconnected. I saw them waiting at a bus stop in my village back in Bimshire. As far as I know, my friend has never visited my homeland. i stopped the bus and got off in much excitment, thinking that If I didn't I'd never see my friend again. We hugged, chatted and I took my friend to see all my family there. We talked about old times and just when we were finalizing our current contact info, I woke up. Boye was I pissed off, I wanted to go back to sleep, to finish the dream but I couldn't.

So now, I'm considering if I should try to seek out my friend to see what's happening in their life and if our friendship can be reconnected.

14 comments:

Yamfoot said...

4,000 US??? they crazy.

anyway, i know the friend thing you talking bout.

I had this friend in high school. both her parents were british so after 5th form she moved to england for 6th form. We corresponded all that time. she then went to denmark to work and we still coressponded. she even sent me pictures of her wedding. That was back in 1993 or 1994.

While I was in England in 2002 or 2003, cant remember, my mind kept running on her. Her sister is stillin Jamaica and often writes articles in the newspaper with her email address. I emailed her and asked for my friend's email address and sen toff an email to say something like 'just keeping in touch, what you up to, here's what i'm up to"

many weeks after...no answer. So i email sister again to say are you sure? I had even phoned a friend of hers to double check email address. The sister copied me on an email she sent my friend saying 'you shoudl reply to your friend from high school'.

well, the friend wrote back soon after to say something to this effect...

"hi yamfoot, i did get your email the first time and i am sorry i didnt respond then. I know you went through an awful lot of trouble to fine me but what i really wanted to say was i dont think we have anything in common anymore so i don't want to be in contact with you"

well, my jaw dropped. Ok, so we didnt talk on the phone for 3 hours at a time while we were in high school, but we were close. She even gave me a bible in 1982.

So what she come with this now for? I thanked her for her time, suggested that by emailing her it didnt mean that I wanted to jump on a plane and come visit her in denmark; rather, that she had ran across my mind and i simply wanted to see how she was.

I then wished her and her family all the best.

I then copied all my high school friends who had email addresses on our correspondence and they were like "coo deh, a wha wrang wid she?"

Of cours ei was polite and nice, but the bad yammie in me wanted to say something like "yo white bitch, you think you better than this nigger, well go jump off a building and may you have a gloomy life".

I then thre away the bible that she had given me, and walked Oxford Road (Borden Books) and bought another one. Hrmph.

Abeni said...

Sometimes it best to leave things the way they are.But if I had a contact I would send off an email or something

Brotha Buck said...

I'll have to blog about this sometime, but my blog name, Buck, came from my dad. My dad nick named me buck. I always hated the name though, because whenever he used it, screamed it, I was in trouble.

Scratchie said...

I guess it is a judgement call. Reality is that things times and people do change. You know your friend best. You could get burnt but hey you could rekindle a friendship.

Campfyah said...

wow Yamfoot, that's deep. She din had to go there, how she know now after all these yrs, that wunna doan have nuttin in common...wunna have grown up and matured...I woulda give way de bible too...

I'm still considering trying to locate my friend. It's on my mind more and more.

Mad Bull said...

Well, I have stopped dealing with several people after long absences in my life, but I felt I had enough reason and I've not given it a second thought most of the time... I'll prolly blog it soon. Its so hard to come up with something decent to write sometimes...

Unknown said...

That rent sounds like some the rent being asked by the richer folks for their houses on the hills and in the affluent neighborhoods down here in Jmaica.

You did stir up a ruffle! Now you have me explaining my name on my latest post! LOL.

Why do we always seem to loose contact with some of our friends. Maybe it's a sign that you should search for that friend and reunite...or just random brain activity!

I hate waking up when I'm enjoying a dream, and you can nevr pick up where you left off when you go back to sleep!

Angry Dog said...

You know, I've had something similar to that happen to me a few times. Used to hang out with so many people and lose track of them--the hard part is when there's a certain disjoint...it's like you're hanging out today and you don't realize that you'll probably never cross paths with that person again the very next day. Very sad stuff, but I guess that's life.

courtney said...

i like the name...it's cute!

brooklyn babe said...

Yes reconnect with that friend babes. And yes we know all about, all that glitters aint gold. But your home looks lovely just the same. And you got a place to call home. PEace

brooklyn babe said...

PS...Krossfyah is my band, use to jump with them back in my Crop Over Days, peace!

Japronika said...

Just showin luv...

Marc M said...

Ahh so that's where the name comes from...good to know.

Jdid said...

check fa the friend nuh