Will Power

ahhh that oldso awful word, Will Power. What is it and how can i get it. I mean if you look up the word or words will power in the dictionary, you surely won't find my name there. Why because I have the worst will power ever...OK maybe not the worst, it I surely could do with some more.

Take this for example. I'm not a person that really diets, but I know that my diet and the kinds of food I eat relates to my weight gain or lost. I try to eat sensible enough. Get my exercise and do right by my body. So what's my problem you ask? what am I bitching about this time. Well here is it. My will power not to eat things that I know will sabatoge my diet. Now christmas and the holidays just gone, I went home to NY for those holidays. To a West Indian house. Picture dis. fuh two weeks , I surrounded by sweet bread, turnovers, black cake, carrot cake, cheese cake, mauby sorrell, Rumpunch, ginger beer, rotis, doubles, jerk fish the Feeding Tree food (Best Jamacian Resturant on Nostrand Ave) Lordee dem fellas musse think ah can't cook, damned ah hungry now just thinking about dem....Oh wait ah did on to someting oh yes.. Will Power..yuh see ah can't even keep it tuh write de blog.

Anyhow as I was saying, I home eating all this great food fuh de holidays, so yuh know de lbs pack on....so now I figure, I gotta get things back in order, which requires me to limit some kinds of food I eat...my weakness...sweets and bread. I already told wunna that I live at de back door of one of the famous bakeries in Caracas...yuh know de one wid de bad service..Danubios, yes that one, I does sit hey daily at the computer while de smell of fresh baked bread and pastries does be killing me...So in order to get things back in place I have to cut out eating the pastries, breads and other sweet stuff. Work out at the gym, which I do almost daily, ah body sculpting class M-W-F and spinning (my new thing) Tues & Thurs. if I din make class on M-W-F morning I try to ketch the Tae-boxing class on one of those evenings, but yes, I get at least 4 good days of exercising in.

Problem---- Will Power to stop eating the bread, sweets and stuff like that. It just kills me, I can't do it....or can I. I need the will power and I just ein gettin it... so like what do I do, leave the gym...am forced to past in front of Danuibos to get home and must have the will power not to stop and get something. damned....that's torture. Or go out to lunch and must order a nice ensalada y agua or something so and leave the coffee and desert alone... how vicious, can't do it. So all the working out I doing ein helping cause I ein got enuff will power tuh cut out the sweets. Then I get on the sacle the last few days and pissed at myself, because I've gained another 2lbs. To make matters worse, I hang out with a bunch of ladies that love to get together and eat...man, not the good healthy stuff but sweet stuff plus the wine. Plus I'm always entertaining at home. Will Power...it's a bitch.

So what's a girl to do. How can I exercise more will power...help a sister out... cause I off tuh lunch now. Or maybe just fuget the will power and think of the next best thing. Latinos style, cut, tuck, pinch, nip...my next blog.....later !!!!!!!!!